What do you believe in?
God, ghosts, magic, people...
There is a lot I believe in, but I haven't always been a strong believer.
Growing up, I was always sensitive. My mom would simply raise her voice and it would send me to tears. When I hit elementary school/middle school, I was an athlete. My biggest fail...the FAILURE to BELIEVE IN MYSELF. I don't know why, and I don't know if I could ever explain it, but I've always been so full of self doubt. So unsure. So unbelieving that I could do amazing things. So worried about what people think or are going to say about me. So worried of failure. So worried of disappointing people who I love. I never lived for me, but for other people's reactions. Throughout the years, I've grown up a lot, made a lot of mistakes, felt the hurt of failures, felt the sting of rejection, cried tears of happiness and sorrow, laughed until my sides hurt, cherished so many fun adventures with amazing friends and family...
and now, the year of my 30th birthday, I can finally, finally say that I BELIEVE IN MYSELF. It took so much for me to get to this point, but I have a very few special friends that have helped me overcome so much and showed me how to truly embrace myself for who I am, to know that I am special and that I AM WORTH IT. Another huge influence for me to finally come to this conclusion is running. I never in a million years dreamed that I would be sitting here, 3 marathons in...but the amazingness I felt with all of my positive self talk during Kalamazoo and Cleveland has left me happy and at ease. I now know that I can do anything as long as I truly believe in my heart that I can. It only takes a thought.
The reason I'm writing this is to show you my friendly reminder that I got yesterday to always remind myself to believe.
This is Hebrew for "believe in yourself" so that in my lowest of lows I can look down and remember how it feels to believe in yourself, and that all things are possible. Do you believe in yourself?
I'm ending with this video of monkey man tonight at dinner. Love this little guy! Hope you all had a wonderful weekend!