How to ensure you have a sucktastic
20 16.5 miler...
- take the week off from work. Take on many home improvements and spend ZERO time running
- run over big toe with dresser during home improvements and rip nail straight down center...i didn't know a toe could bleed so much. yuck.
- ensue on a diet coke binge...and drink nothing but it for the entire week leading up to the big run
- go on "at home diet"...junk. junk. junk.
- carb load night before big run with McNasty's (aka McDonalds)...seriously, WTH?
- start morning waking up LATE and fighting with daughter all the way to school
- try out "race day outfit"
- hate "race day shirt" 1/2 mile in
- Itch like CRAZY!
- did I mention the high wind advisory for the day? Just imagine running. in. wind. tunnel.
- Upset tummy by mile 3
- stop at mile 6 for the porta potty, but suffer a case of shy bladder and can't go:/
- see nicole at mile 9 which is the ONLY good part of my run
- bring on the calf cramps at mile 10! Whoot whoot!
- so excited for a huge drink of water at mile 11...only to find a swallow barely enough for me to gag down some Gu
- curse, stomp, rant to mile 12 when the numbness down my right leg rears it's ugly head
- text nicole quote "eff this, pick me up"
- right foot/calf/hamstring alternate between numb/throbbing. sweet
- call my mom and beg for a ride. denied.
- sit down on side of trail at mile 15 and remove my shoes to assess the damage
- walk/run barefoot the last 1.5 miles faking a smile, fighting back tears to all of the other "fresh runners" ...isn't it totally normal to pass a girl who looks like she got hit by a bus and is hobbling along barefoot carrying her shoes??
- sit on side of road at 16.5 and wait for nicole to come save me.
- sulk, feel angry, weak, let down, pissed off that I didn't man up
- take first real ice bath
- shower immediately afterwards because I can't quit shivering
- sport amazing compression socks...god I love those things!
This weeks run was a HUGE reality check for me. 26.2 miles is going to be no joke.
It's also raised a lot of things to think about for my upcoming race. Like...should I consider running it with my cute Zensah compression socks? What are we going to wear? I'm not sold on the shirt I tried on Friday because it made me itch. Terribly. Did you know that it's been like 100 fricken degrees in California lately? What are some realistic goals I can set for myself? I know this race is going to be 75% mental and 25% physical, how can I mentally prepare so I'm not sitting on the side of the road freaking out? I really want to finish in 4:30, but in reality I know I'm looking closer to 5 hours. Hell, after Friday I would nearly be happy with 6! It's supposed to be taper week, but I'm a little concerned and am considering another try at a long run this weekend...more for my mental well being than anything. Nicole sent me an email today that said, "17 days until we leave for Long Beach"...it nearly made me hyperventilate. What in the world is wrong with me? I've worked really hard and I know I can do this...why do all the sudden I feel so full of doubt? good grief! I truly do need to man up!
So I'm adopting this quote to be my motto for the next 3 weeks:
It's not about waiting for the storm to pass...it's about screaming with the thunder, running with the lightening, and learning to dance in the rain.
I'm really sorry that I've been such a bad blogger, but am hoping to get caught up with my reading soon! And sorry for being so negative...just had to get a few things off my chest.